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Friday, June 19, 2026

Second Roll of Polyfilm Handmade 120 Film from Ukraine

After going back and forth with Ihor and getting recommendations on how to best develop this wacky film of his, I shot a second roll yesterday. I switched from the Kiev 88 to my Hasselblad 500cm, but made a mistake in loading the film that resulted in me getting only 10 frames and having some overlap between them. I gave the film a pre-wash that lasted seven minutes, cut development from 15 minutes to 12, used an acid stop bath as recommended (I usually stop with water), and rinsed after fixing for ten minutes, something I usually avoid because I use an alkaline fixer and hypo washes out of film much more quickly when you use an alkaline fixer.

A black rectangular office building with a wall of glass. An American flag stands at center, and cars are parked in front. A metal plaque for The Jansky Monument shows a photo of radio astronomer Karl Jansky and an explanation of what he did at this site. Below that, a photo of his antenna. In the background, an artistic representation of that antenna is seen, out of focus. A sculpture showing two metal lines in the shape of square waves, a representation of Karl Jansky's antenna

The first three photos show that the lines I got on the first roll are dramatically less present. They're still there, but less noticeable. They are particularly visible in flat color areas, like the sky. This closeup shows the upper left portion of the third photo where they are visible both in the sky and on the metal of the sculpture.

A sculpture showing two metal lines in the shape of square waves, a representation of Karl Jansky's antenna

There is, however, this odd mottling throughout the roll, and given the shapes, I think this may also be an artifact of the plasticizers.

A water tower in the shape of a transistor, the crowning achievement of Bell Labs, rises in the distance under an expansive sky A long black office building streches from side to side of the frame under a large expansive sky.

As we get further into the roll, the lines so present on the first roll get harder to find and more localized. In the shot of the diner, they're present mostly to the left of the sign on the roof. In the shot of the Chinese restaurant, they're visible at the left of the frame, but not nearly as disruptive as the previous roll's examples.

A small Chinese restaurant with a sign over the front that says First Wok Chinese Food To Take Out Tel:732-888-5533. A man is visible adjusting a display of soda bottles just inside the restaurant. A long black office building streches from side to side of the frame under a large expansive sky.

The last three photos continue the pattern where the lines are visible primarily at the left of the frame, but less visible than previous. There is more evidence of the hand-coated nature of the film with some verticle lines running through the photos and an occasional black dot where there was probably a bubble or something.

A small Chinese restaurant with a sign over the front that says First Wok Hinese Food To Take Out Tel:732-888-5533. A man is visible adjusting a display of soda bottles just inside the restaurant. A long black office building streches from side to side of the frame under a large expansive sky. A long black office building streches from side to side of the frame under a large expansive sky.

All told, the revised development process improved the film, but I suspect there may be some changes needed in the formulation to lower the level of plasticizers. I don't see this kind of mottling that I got on every shot in the examples I've seen posted elsewhere from other batches by people like Ari Jaaksi and Vitalii Kovalyshyn.

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Wednesday, June 17, 2026

First Roll of Polyfilm handmade 120 film from Ukraine

I half recalled my friend Andre from L'viv mentioning on Mastodon a while back that a friend of his was making his own film in his garage, so when I saw this video by Ari Jaaksi a few weeks ago, I wasn't totally shocked. It was interesting; Ari's photos turned out quite well from the rolls he had been sent. I looked into the links that Ari posted to his video and found that I could actually buy up to four rolls of this film. I jumped at the chance (you can't really buy it right now, because the production amount is about 30 rolls per month and the queue is full, but it will reopen at some point). My four rolls of 120 Polyfilm showed up on Monday. This morning, Wednesday, I loaded a roll in what seemed to me to be the most appropriate choice to shoot it in, a Kiev 88CM. Ukrainian film, Ukrainian camera. I used a German lens, though, a Carl Zeiss Jena 120mm Sonnar and went to the nearby Twin Lights lighthouse and the town the lighthouse is in, Highlands, New Jersey.

I shot the whole roll, then brought it home and developed it. One of the two recommended developers is Rodinal, which was pretty much the only developer I used until fairly recently. I developed the roll in Rodinal 1:25 for 15 minutes in my PiraMX Developers Helper, which keeps the temperature at a steady 20 degrees Celsius. Let the film dry for a few hours, and scanned it. I'm posting the whole roll. Ihor Poliakov, the guy who makes the film, said in his note that came with the film that it is not perfect, and that's very true. I got some very odd results that I didn't see in the online posts of film from other batches.

A roll of film hangs to dry in a shower

This was the roll hanging to dry in the shower after development. The first thing I noticed was the appearance of the exposed emulsion at the top of this strip. That emulsion doesn't spread the entire width of the film, and makes me think this film, or at least this batch, has an issue that other batches didn't. My understanding is that the film is coated twice, once with something that actually sticks to the base and once with a photosensitive emulsion. It's not clear to me if the first coating is also photosensitive, but there are clearly two photosensitive coatings on this particular roll, and one of them did not span the entire width of the film.

Cut roll of film in a PhotoFile sheet, showing the presence of exposed emulsion between frames

Looking more closely at the film, the space between frames also shows this coating of emulsion showing some degree of exposure, not covering the entire width of the film.

A blob of exposed emulsion dripped down the film base

This is a closer look at the blob of exposed emulsion that's visible at one end of the film.

I don't know if this happened with all the rolls in this batch, or just this one. This is batch 260526. I'll be looking out for the other three rolls I have to see if this happens with those or if this was a one-off.

I didn't do any adjustments to the raw scans I made of the developed film, so they look a little flat. I spotted things that were identifiably dust, but other flaws in the emulsion were left as is.

Oblique shot of the front of a building with a lighthouse tower at the far end Close shot of the top of a lighthouse tower

The first couple of shots show some interesting artefacts. Black dots off to the right remind me of little concentrations of silver I've occasionally seen in wet plate, oysters and comets. There are a couple of spots where the emulsion looks damaged, one in the sky and one on the center body of the lighthouse building of the first shot. Then there's the lines. They're visible somewhat in the sky on the first shot, but much more visible in the second. They look like some sort of crystalization of the emulsion or something, and they're present on every shot on this roll. This 100% zoom of the second photo gives a better look at it.

100% view of the top of the lighthouse tower showing odd crystal-like lines

The next several shots all show the crystalization to greater or lesser extent.

The front of a large stone building with the number 1862 embedded in the gable A pile of bricks Beach binoculars Bricks stacked on top of each other with gaps in places The view through the trees of the town of Highlands with Sandy Hook, the bay, and the ocean in the distance

The next three photos show the increasing degree of difference in exposure at the edge where the two layers of photosensitive emulsion give way to a single layer, since the one layer didn't cover the entire width.

Two eye bolts embedded in concrete, once used to guy antennas used by Gugliemo Marconi at this site A bench with concrete pedestals and wooden slats for the seating surface The Inlet Cafe

The final two shots show another interesting oddity that may be another form of crystalization visible mainly in the upper right of each shot.

The Inlet Cafe The Inlet Cafe

My first thought when I saw the scans was that maybe there was reticulation, but I developed the film in my PiraMX Developer's Helper, which keeps the temperature constant, and the water I used was not at a signficantly different temperature. So I don't think it was reticulation.

It will be interesting to see if other users who got this batch get similar results, and if I get similar results from the other rolls I have. I knew when I bought these that it was an experimental film, so I'm not surprised there are flaws.

I shared this post with Ihor on Patreon before posting it, and he thinks the lines are caused by the plasticization he uses in making the emulsion. He thinks spending more time washing the film can take care of that. He sent out e-mail suggesting exposure at 25-30 ISO, dropping development to 12 minutes in Rodinal 1:25 from 15-18, pre-washing for 2-3 minutes, and 5 minutes of rinsing at the end. I'll give that a try for the next roll and see what happens.

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Friday, October 24, 2025

A Visit to the Autophoto Museum + Gallery in New York City

Last Friday Laura and I went into the city. One reason was to visit a new museum, the Autophoto Photobooth Gallery + Museum on the lower east side. They have several working old school photobooths which you can use. We're always on the lookout for these old booths. New Jersey used to have a few, but they're all gone here.

Four photographs in a vertical strip of a man and a woman posing.

The first booth we used was a Model 14 that sits in the front window. It's in great shape. Very late 1950s, early 1960s look to it, a style we used to see a lot of on the Jersey Shore.

A woman leans over in front of a photobooth to retrieve a strip of photographs. A sign on top of the booth reads 'Photos. Electronic Lighting. All Photos Are Sharp and Clear.' A red curtain is closed.

There was a booth to do color photos next to it, but the color paper is in short supply and they weren't operating it the day we were there.

Four photographs in a vertical strip of a man and a woman posing.

Next up was a Model 21, very stylish, more of a 1970s vibe, bright colors and the like.

A woman steps into a photo booth. There is a purple bar at the top with the word 'PHOTOS' in yellow. The body of the booth is red and white stripes, with a yellow border around the place where the pictures come out. A sign in front of the booth says this is a Model 21 and gives an explanation of its history. A photo strip sits inside the strip dispenser, a man and woman visible on the strip inside. The border around the dispenser is a bright yellow.

Up next was a rare Polaroid photobooth. For some reason, these never quite caught on, so there weren't many made. I think I've only seen a couple in the wild over the years, and not for many years.

A woman and a man smile at the camera in front of a background with many abstract Polaroid frames. The photo has a green color cast.

I think this booth could probably use some adjustment. The photo looks underexposed to me and has a distinct green cast.

A woman checks her phone in front of a black photobooth. A sign on the photobooth reads 'Polaroid Instant Memories', with Polaroid in its famous logotype and th eother words in multicolored stylized text. The side of the booth has the Polaroid Logo and rainbow stripes running vertically the whole height of the booth.

There is a Model 9 next to the Polaroid booth, but it is non-functional. The Model 9 was the first model produced by Autophoto, and is fairly primitive by comparison with later models like the Model 11, which introduced the ability to process more than one strip at a time.

A worn wooden photobooth with rounded corners stands against a wall. There is a seat inside and photo strips attached under plexiglass on the outside. On the top are a couple of signs. The sign on the left reads 'Property of Auto Photo Co. of Canada Ltd 2195 Ekers Ave Montreal.' The sign on the right is smaller and just reads 'Property of Auto Photo co.'

There is a display in the back that shows the inner workings of a photobooth using a partial Model 20 with the front wall replaced with plexiglass.

A partial photobooth with a clear plexiglass cover that exposes the inner workings of the booth. Stenciled on the plexiglass is 'Demonstration Booth For Viewing Purposes Only Pictures Deliverd From Booth You Sat In'. Auto-Photo Model 20. 1960s-1970s. Demo. Non-Operational. 
This unusual half-booth was never intended for taking portraits on its own. Instead, it was built as a demonstration unit for the Pacific Science Center museum, designed to reveal the inner workings of a photobooth in real time.
When paired with a functioning booth, a customer would sit in the 'real' booth to take their strips. That booth's mechanism was linked to the half-unit, triggering it to run in perfect synchronization. As the customer's strip developed next door, onlookers could watch the chemical dip-and-dunk process play out inside the transparent machine.
The demonstration booth exposed the hidden mechanics behind every photobooth: paper feeding into the carriers, the spider assembly rotating strips through the sequence of chemical tanks, and the delivery unit presenting the finished strip.
Serving both as a training tool and a promotional display, this
see-through booth offered a rare chance to peek behind the
curtain of one of the 20th century's most popular automated machines.
From our primary collection of restored Auto-Photo models.

There are also other displays about the history of photobooths. I didn't get pictures of all of them. I gather the displays will rotate. One of the displays was an art book of photographs of photobooth technicians.

A display on the wall showing aspects of the history of photobooths. Below that is a folded long strip of paper under plexiglass showing photos of photobooth technicians.

Next up was a Model 17 that was only sporadically working. We paid our money and the strip didn't come out. In this picture you can see one of the docents working on the innards while on the phone with "Bre", the owner of the museum and most of the machines. When Laura had told me about the museum, I figured there was only one person with the assets to pull it off, and when the docent told me she was on the phone with Bre who was helping her troubleshoot, I knew that I was right, this was the brainchild of Breanna Conley Saxon, who was interviewed about photobooths on the much missed All Through A Lens podcast a few years ago.

Four photographs in a vertical strip of a man and a woman posing. The left edge of the strip is partially damaged and all black.

She was able to retrieve our photos from the booth, somewhat damaged. We got a free sitting in the one booth we hadn't used that day, a Model 11 that had been converted to digital. The 11D outputs two strips of three photos each, a total of six photos, oriented horizontally rather than vertically. The photo quality is surprisingly similar to analog photo booths.

Three photographs in a horizontal strip of a man and a woman posing. Three photographs in a horizontal strip of a man and a woman posing.

As a museum, it's good that they have an example of a digital conversion, but it pains me to see these, as it is how so many of these booths have wound up. The booth on the boardwalk in Asbury Park that used to be in Palace Amusements and in the basement of a mall on Cookman Ave. now sits in the Silverball Pinball Museum on the boardwalk converted to digital. Boo!

A wooden photobooth with rounded corners and a grayish-blue curtain. A sign beside it says it is a Model 11D, a model that didn't exist under the original Auto-Photo company.

The last photobooth we tried was a rare Model 12, which produces larger photos, but only in a strip of three. The photos it produced look a little overexposed and washed out to me, which honestly is kind of in keeping with how they used to look back in the day. You could get some that were underexposed or underdeveloped, overexposed, or perfectly exposed and developed, depending on maintenance and the state of the chemicals. And that's one of the things that makes getting these so much fun.

Three photographs in a horizontal strip of a man and a woman posing.

The museum is tiny, just a storefront on a side street, and it was packed on the day we were there, about a week after it opened. The have a souvenir shop in the middle of the space.

A woman works behind a counter in front of an iPad. The wall behind her says 'Autophoto New York' and several items for sale hang from the wall, including bags, photostrip picture frames, a map of photobooths in New York city, and some books.

I have to be honest, this was not a cheap date. Most of the photo booths cost $8 for a strip; the color booth and the Model 12 cost $12. That's actually in line with costs at other booths in NYC, maybe at the high end, but the booths are well maintained and in great shape. The souvenirs are also pretty expensive. That didn't stop us from getting anything, but it's worth keeping in mind if you're on a budget. Entry to the museum is free; they make their money on the use of the booths and the souvenir sales.

We had a wonderful time and really enjoyed out visit.

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Saturday, August 23, 2025

Getting Into The Weed, Photographic Chemistry Edition

I've spent the last couple of weeks reading up on photographic chemistry. It started when I got the new 5th edition of The Darkroom Cookbook by Steve Anchell. I have three previous versions and it's a classic. There's a lot of great information in there. This is the book that convinced me to go to an all alkaline development process for my black and white films. Turns out that when you use alkaline fixer, the bad stuff you need to wash out (specifically hypo, typically sodium or ammonium thiosulfate) just drops right out after about 40 seconds of washing, unlike acid fixer, which requires a good ten minutes of washing. I started using Photographers Formulary TF-4 when I tried using a Pyro-based developer several years ago. Pyro didn't stick; I didn't see any benefit from using it. But the fixer did. And when I read The Darkroom Cookbook's earlier editions, I understood why it's a good idea. The new edition has a new section on digital negatives. I think I'm going to try the approach laid out there. I've tried others with step wedges and never really got things dialed in. I'm considering trying Platinum/Palladium printing, and digital negatives would come in very handy for that.

Steve Anchell also helped out on another book, The Film Developing Cookbook, whose primary author is Bill Troop, who it turns out formulated my favorite fixer, TF-4. The Darkroom Cookbook points to The Film Developing Cookbook for elaboration on several items, so when I finished The Darkroom Cookbook, I pulled The Film Developing Cookbook (second edition) off the shelf. Again, another very worthwhile read.

One thing that I noticed reading it this time is that Troop calls out a man named Grant Haist quite often. Now, I happen to know who Haist is. He was a research chemist at Kodak and an author and also a fine arts photographer. I have two of his books, George Eastman's Cameras, which is a survey of all the cameras Kodak put out during Eastman's life, and Modern Photographic Processing Volumes 1 & 2. I happened to discover Haist, who died in 2015, when many of his cameras went up for auction on the auction site Everything But The House. I wound up buying four of his cameras: A 5x7 Press Graflex that gets mentioned in his George Eastman book (he even mentions the serial number in the book, which is the one on the camera I bought), a Graflex RB Super D 4x5, a 4x5 Super Graphic, and a 4x5 Super Speed Graphic. Those latter two were the end of the line for the Speed Graphic line, and oddly, didn't have the focal plane shutter that distinguished the Speed Graphic from the Crown Graphic. I find those two less useful than my older Pacemaker Speed Graphic. Anyway, I have this two volume set by Grant Haist that I bought from the same estate sale, and I hadn't read it because it looks daunting, but I figured it was time after reading these other two books, one of which quoted him extensively.

A 5x7 Press Graflex camera, three-quarters view A 4x5 Graflex RB Super D SLR camera, side view. Two 4x5 cameras, a Graflex Super Graphic and a Graflex Super Speed Graphic, three-quarters view

It was a lot less daunting than I expected. It is a bit chemistry heavy, but that's a good thing, and the first couple of chapters are basically a lesson in chemistry down to the atomic level, learning about electrons and how elements bond and stuff like that. It's a good basis for the rest of the books. Volume 1 has most broadly interesting stuff. It explains how film stores the latent image when you expose it, and how developers amplify the latent image and make it visible, down to the atomic level. I have a much better understanding of how developing black and white film works after reading this. Then there ar several chapters that describe various classes of developers. There are of course solvent and non-solvent developers, but even those can be broken down. He even covers my favorite, Rodinal, briefly. There are formulas for dozens of different developers, as well as explanations of how they work. The Anchell and Troop books have a lot of this in them, but Haist goes over and above. There's quite a bit of history in there as wwll, with formulas for archaic and no longer useful mixtures that maybe wouldn't work so well with modern films. The first volume closes with an explanation of how fixing works. Troop calls out Haist for recommending alkaline fixing but saying that Kodak had prevented him from writing much about it because they considered it a trade secret. Sure enough, the section about fixing is acid this and acid that and all acid all the time. I didn't find much about alkaline fixing there.

The second book gets further into the weeds, if you will, covering topics that you may never need to use but that are still interesting. There are chapters about intensification and reduction with formulas on how to save over or under developed negatives, and toning, which is specific to darkroom printing and which many modern film photographers who practice a hybrid approach will never need. Haist also wrote about book about monobaths, The Monobath Book, which I don't have. There's a chapter about monobaths in volume 2. Almost all developers work best in an alkaline environment, not acid. So by definition, if you're using a monobath, you'll be using an alkaline fixer. And there, in the last paragraph of the chapter about monobaths, is the information that alkaline baths wash out so much more quickly, reaching archival levels of hypo after only 40 seconds of washing.

Other chapters in volume 2 cover stabilization and incorporated chemistry, both of which relate to extremely quick turnaround development where time is of the essence, for example, in military work, and having a process to view film in seconds is important while perhaps longevity is less important or at the very least can be postponed. I would think that digital photography has completely and utterly obsoleted the information here. Most of the rest of the book is about stuff that will reasonably be used by fine arts photographers for years, but these chapters, which were current in 1979 when the first edition of these books was published, are unlikely to find any use at all. They still made for interesting reading.

There is a chapter on reversal processing of black and white film, a niche even when it was written. I do this, and found much to be interested in here. I was trying to experiment with the Sabattier effect recently, with mixed success. There is information here that helped me understand why. There's also a very interesting chapter on diffusion transfer, the basis of instant photography. There's a lot of history in this chapter, but there's also a ton of chemistry. As someone with a passion for Polaroid, I found this particularly interesting. I think it gave me some insight into why. for example, New55 prints looked the way they did (I miss that film). I have a case of Polaroid 809 with dried up chemistry in the basement (fuck you, CatLABS) and may use some of the information in this chapter to replace the development pods and see if I can actually use that film.

Then there are two chapters on color processing. The chemistry here is at another level. It's like jumping from a 100 level beginners class to a graduate seminar. I read it. I'll probably have to read it a couple more times to really understand it. But I got some basics out of it. Again, another section with a lot of history in it. I have a better understanding of how Kodachrome was processed and understand why it will never return. (I also have a reference to a magazine article from 1939 about how to process it at home that might be worth looking up.)

I enjoyed reading all three books. The first two are readily available, still in print. The Haist books are a little trickier to find. The copies I have are from Haist's personal press, released in 2000. Haist Press died when Haist did, so the books are no longer in print. There is a seller on eBay who has copies of them, though. They're a little pricy, but if you want to go deep into this stuff, you would have a hard time finding a better read.

Now that I've read all these books, I'll almost certainly just keep using Rodinal for 98% of my photography. But at least I'll know about other options and when I might want to use them.

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Friday, July 25, 2025

Long Drives and Photography

I have been driving down to Florida rather than flying in recent years. I hate I-95. It's a dismal highway. It sucks in Maryland. It sucks in Virginia. It really sucks in North Carolina. It sucks pretty badly in South Carolina. I do what I can to avoid it. I take U.S. 13 down the eastern shore of Maryland and Virginia, cross the Chesapeake Bay Bridge-Tunnel, then pick up U.S. 17 south of Hampton Roads and take that through the Carolinas (for the most part). It's nearly as fast as I-95 and a lot more pleasant, very little in the way of white-knuckling traffic. And there's the opportunity to take the business route from time to time and see some interesting shore towns.

Going to St. Augustine this way takes me two days, same as if I take I-95. Maybe adds an hour or so to my travel time. I keep telling myself that this trip, I'm going to slow down, take my time, maybe take three days, and make the drive part of a vacation, taking pictures all the way. And every time, when the rubber hits the road, I fail to do that. I make mental notes of photogenic spots, which I mostly forget in specifics even if I remember a general impression.

There are two things that occur to me as a result of this. The first is that I could really use a phone app to mark photogenic spots while driving. Say you're driving along a road and have this app up, showing your route, and you see a run down old house that would make a good picture. Obviously, you don't want to handle your phone while you're driving, so the interface for marking spots would have to be voice-driven. "Siri, Scouter mark old run down house", and the program would create a marker with that spot, that you could review later and plan for a future trip. It would need to have the ability to generate routes, like Apple Maps or Google Maps, too, so that you wouldn't have to switch between it and your directions. I don't know of an app that does this. Maybe I need to learn Swift and make it.

A worn white clapboard building and a roof extending past the front door held up by brick columns. The roof covers two rusted out gasoline pumps, one of which says 'Regular', the other of which says nothing as the glass at the top of the pump has been broken. A sign attqched to the wall above the door says 'J. F. Wilson & Son Store'. A small temporary sign offers 'Hot Pepper VINEGAR'. There is a table under the roof piled up with stuff. A sign to the left of the building says 'Ken Wilsons Yard Sale Inside'. There is a forest behind the building.

Second thing is about shooting photos of old run down buildings, colloquially, ruin porn. What is it about stuff from the past that has seen better days that makes interesting photographs? Does it really make interesting photographs, or is it a cliche best left alone? I shoot a lot of stuff like this, and there is quite a bit of it along the eastern seaboard once you get off I-95. I had a lot of time to think about this as I sped past countless photographic opportunities at 70 miles per hour. I don't think I came to a conclusion. This debate in my head has kind of been ongoing for a while, but my inability to stop to take photographs while on a long haul drive kind of brought it to the fore. I'll probably keep thinking about it while I keep making these photographs, wondering if they're worth making and whether stuff falling apart is really all that compelling.

A closer view of the J. F. Wilson & Son Store showing the Regular gasoline pump with wood piled on its right side and four empty pots surrounding the 'Hot Pepper VINEGAR' sign.

One exception to this was a building I found in the middle of nowhere in North Carolina as I had gotten off even the speedy U.S. 17 for some reason. On my way back from Florida in May, I let the GPS take me for a bit of a back roads adventure (I don't remember why) for a few miles, and I stumbled across an old building that I needed to take a photo of. I didn't stop. But when I got home, I retraced my tracks and found the building on Apple Maps, and noted the location. Heading down to Florida in late June, I routed myself past the building and stopped for ten minutes to take some photos. If I did this for everything I saw that I thought might make an interesting photo, I could easily extend my trip to three days instead of two. The question is whether it's worth spending the money on an extra night in a hotel and on another day of meals on the road and if the photos are worth taking.

Another closer view of the J. F. Wilson & Son Store showing the Regular gasoline pump with wood piled on its right side. The 'Hot Pepper VINEGAR' sign is only partially visible. This shot shows that the pump has the words 'Sam Co. Gas' painted on the bottom pedestal in a color that did not stand out in the other photos.

The argument for shooting these building is that they have character. What does that mean? What am I trying to say when I make these photographs? I think it's probably something about the impermanence of the works of people, how things fall apart, entropy increases, we all die. But maybe it's just ruin porn, gawking at the backwardness of places that have fallen behind.

Another closer view of the J. F. Wilson & Son Store showing the Regular gasoline pump with wood piled on its right side. The 'Hot Pepper VINEGAR' sign is only partially visible. This shot shows that the pump has the words 'Sam Co. Gas' painted on the bottom pedestal in a color that did not stand out in the other photos.

I'll probably be travelling to Florida a few more times between now and the end of the year. Maybe one of these trips I can give myself permission to take time and make some mistakes taking photos nobody needs to see.

A signpost stands in a field beside a road. To the left, No Outlet. To the right, Oak City, some obscured number of miles away. To the fore, N.C. 42, 3 miles away. To the rear, Tarboro, 11 miles away.

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Thursday, February 27, 2025

About Raindrops

If it seems I've been obsessed with raindrops the past couple of years, there's a reason, and I've never discussed why online. Until now, it wasn't really my story to tell.

A young boy and an attractive woman in a flowered dress sit on a solid blue couch in front of a paneled wall. The woman has her arms around the boy. The photograph is a color Polaroid shot on peel apart film.

My mom moved in with us three years ago. She had mobility issues, and her second-floor walk-up condo in Florida didn't fit her needs any more, so we moved her in with us back in New Jersey, in the house that she and my dad bought in 1978, which my wife and I bought from them in 2003.

Three raindrops cling to branches. Two are in the foreground, representing two surviving children borne by my mother; the third in on a different branch in the background, representing the brother who passed away earlier. The photograph is in black and white.

She was housebound from the start, but could maneuver inside the house. I was her caregiver, but it wasn't that onerous, basically making her dinner and fetching things occasionally.

But over time, her latitude shrank. First to go was sitting at the kitchen table for dinner. She could still go to the kitchen and make herself lunch with whatever food was available on the refrigerator door (not so much in the rest of the fridge), but consumed all her meals in the lift chair she used in the family room. And with the passage of time, her walking with her walker slowed down and got more precarious. With every decrease in her capabilities, there was an increase in my need to provide her with help and to stay close to home.

A raindrop clings to the end of a branch. Inside the raindrop, trees can be seen upside down. The photograph is in black and white.

In late October, she went into the hospital to deal with an infection that was discovered by some bloodwork the visiting nurse who treated her asked for. She came out in early November with a cancer diagnosis. Things started to decline faster from that point, and in January she entered hospice care.

She passed away on February 26, 2025, with her two living children by her side.

It has been difficult for me to get out of the house and go down the shore the way I used to as my mom's condition declined. The series of shots of raindrops started as a way to keep shooting something while not leaving my property, stealing 15 minutes or so to run off an entire roll of film after a rainstorm. And the worse her condition got, the more important it was for me to stay home or close to home, and my ability to travel shrank to pretty much nothing. But I could still steal 15 minutes and shoot some raindrops occasionally.

A raindrop clings to the end of an evergreen branch. The photograph is in color.

This project has been so closely tied to my caregiving responsibilities and my mom's condition, and now that she's gone, much of my constraints have disappeared (I still have caregiving responsibilities for another family member, but they're less imposing right now). I love the work, and expect to return to it, but not right now. It's still a bit raw, a bit too connected to a difficult time in my life. Thanks to everyone, especially my friends on the social network Glass, for your encouragement with these photos. It's been a way to maintain a bit of my sanity as the rest of my world kind of closed down.

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Monday, November 4, 2024

Offseason Issue 2

I made a new zine. Offseason, Issue 2, is devoted to postcards. When you would go to a motel on the Jersey Shore, there would be postcards in the desk showing the motel, which you were welcome to send to friends and family. This zine pretends to be a collection of such postcards. They are a mix of motels (mostly), businesses (a few), and attractions (a couple), and mostly from New Jersey. The zine is presented as a booklet from which you can remove the postcards and send them, much like little booklets of postcards you can get in gift shops on the shore. It’s bound using that sticky stuff that’s used to make pads of paper. There are 20 postcards included. I printed the cards myself on an Epson 3880 printer on linen postcard paper. I did my best to replicate the look of 1950s motel postcards with a modern process. I’m charging $12 to ship to the US, $16 elsewhere. It’s available from my Etsy site.

photograph of a zine with the title Offseason Issue 2 Postcards over a postcard showing a restaurant on the beach

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Sunday, November 3, 2024

Polaroid Week Autumn 2024 — Freedom

As we approach the election of 2024, something that is on everyone’s minds is freedom. As in, what does it mean, and will we still enjoy it after the results of the election are announced. Yale professor Timothy Snyder has written a book on the subject called “On Freedom”. I’ve read it twice this season. It’s one of the most important books I’ve ever read. For this Polaroid Week, I’ve created pictures based on interpretations of points made in his book.

Snyder posits that there is a difference in conceptions of freedom, one of which is negative freedom, which can be thought of as “freedom from”, and positive freedom, or “freedom to”. Postive freedom is about enabling free people to live their lives to the fullest, and negative freedom is about preventing anything from preventing you from doing whatever you want. Positive freedom leads to democracy. Negative freedom leads in the opposite direction.

There are five components to positive freedom in Snyder’s estimation. The first of these is Sovereignty. Each person is sovereign over their own selves. They are responsible for their own being, their own decisions, their own beliefs. The task of a parent raising a child is to teach them to be a sovereign being, capable of judging right from wrong and living their life in a way that is true to themselves.

My first entry for Polaroid Week represents Sovereignty with a mixed media piece, one of my construction paper people on Polaroid Retinex Type-I film, with a piece of construction paper glued onto the frame so it extends outside the circular frame of the Retinex film.

A Polaroid with a frame made up of alternating colored vertical lines surrounding a circular frame. The lines on the frame alternate colors in a way that there appears to be another circle below and intersecting with the circular frame. Inside the frame, the circle is filled with shades of orange, with two googly eyes and green nose giving the impression that the frame and photo form a body. At the top of the head is a yellow crown.

The second component of positive freedom in Timothy Snyder’s new book “On Freedom” is Unpredictability. Corporations and politicians wish to make you predictable. Surveillance capitalism takes advantage of the capabilities of the Internet to track everything you do, use that to build a profile about you, and predict your desires for consumer products, which politicians you support, your sexual orientation, basically everything about you so that they can take advantage of that predictability to sell you something, either products or politics. A free person is unpredictable, and cannot be reduced to a list of attributes. Unpredictability is therefore the second component of positive freedom.

My second entry for Polaroid Week represents Unpredictability with the combination of two photographs. The photographs have been sliced halfway through, and slid together to form a single work.

A Polaroid with a frame made up of alternating colored vertical lines surrounding a circular frame. The lines on the frame alternate colors in a way that there appears to be another circle below and intersecting with the circular frame. Inside the frame, the circle is filled with shades of blue, with two sets of googly eyes and noses, one at the top of the frame and a second at the bottom of the frame. There is a line between the two sets of eyes and noses that makes clear that two frames have been cut and spliced together.

The third component of positive freedom in Timothy Snyder’s new book “On Freedom” is Mobility. Originally in America, this was perhaps about moving to the frontier, as the country expanded, and having the ability to build one’s own life in new places. After the frontier closed, mobility in America became more about social mobility, the ability to move up the socioeconomic ladder and join the middle class. Increasing wealth inequality leads to less ability to do so; the ability to be mobile is a critical part of positive freedom.

My third entry for Polaroid Week represents Mobility with the addition of a motion blur filter from the Polaroid Spectra family of cameras, part of the Special Effects Filters package. I placed this over the lens of my Mint SLR-670X with I-Type support as I shot a portrait using Polaroid Retinex film.

A Polaroid with a frame made up of alternating colored vertical lines surrounding a circular frame. The lines on the frame alternate colors in a way that there appears to be another circle below and intersecting with the circular frame. Inside the frame, the circle is filled with shades of blue, two googly eyes and a nose giving the impression that the frame and photo form a body. The eyes and nose are blurred in a fashion to give the impression that they are moving.

The fourth component of positive freedom in Timothy Snyder’s new book “On Freedom” is Factuality. To quote Snyder, “Freedom is not us against the world but us within the world, knowing it and changing it.” In order to exist within the world as free people, we must understand the world. The ability to accept facts and truth are crucial to freedom. Lies are the foundation of negative freedom. To be truly free, we must be fact-oriented. Those who lead us by lies lead us into unfreedom.

My fourth entry for Polaroid Week represents Factuality by using the page of a dictionary as the basis of the “face” of one of my Retinex portraits. The dictionary defines the meanings of words. Practitioners of negative freedom will often redefine words or use them to mean things that they do not actually mean.

A Polaroid with a frame made up of alternating colored vertical lines surrounding a circular frame. The lines on the frame alternate colors in a way that there appears to be another circle below and intersecting with the circular frame. Inside the frame, the circle is filled with a page from the dictionary, two googly eyes and a nose giving the impression that the frame and photo form a body.

The fifth component of positive freedom in Timothy Snyder’s new book “On Freedom” is Solidarity. We cannot claim freedom for ourselves and deny it to others. Freedom only makes sense when we recognize in others the things we see in ourselves. America’s motto is E Pluribus Unum; Out of Many, One. What is that but an expression of solidarity? Those who dehumanize others are not interested in your freedom. Unions place solidarity at the top of their principles. We cannot be free unless we are all free.

My fifth entry for Polaroid Week represents Solidarity by photographing all my previous entries, plus a couple others, using the same Retinex film to give the impression of a single body made up all other bodies. I used the hexaprism filter from my Spectra Special Effects filter pack with my Mint SLR-670X Ming Edition I-Type camera.

A Polaroid with a frame made up of alternating colored vertical lines surrounding a circular frame. The lines on the frame alternate colors in a way that there appears to be another circle below and intersecting with the circular frame. Inside the frame, the circle is filled with multiple copies of the previous entries in the series, suggesting that through solidarity we are united in a single body.

This ends my Polaroid Week series for Autumn, 2024. I hope this has piqued your interest in Snyder’s book and made you think about freedom in perhaps a different way than you have before. Snyder’s book is available at https://timothysnyder.org/on-freedom. If you’re American, election day is in a few days. Vote. Vote for freedom. Vote for freedom for all of us.

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